I do have a million reasons
I have a million reasons
to stop
I have a million reasons
to look
I have a million reasons
to smile
at
I have a million reasons
myself
I have a million reasons to look the other way,
to find an excuse
I have a million reasons to forget what was,
to forget what will come
I have a million reasons
to walk past you,
to run the other way
I have a million reasons to look for my own reflection in your eyes
before I see
your eyes
because
I do have a million reasons
to think
I have a million reasons
that I was more important
I have a million reasons
because I was more important
Important
because if not
why would I have a million reasons
A million reasons
because I want to be reminded
because they remind me
and I like
I have a million reasons
of myself
I do not.know not.dare not.
why
If I think I hide the true reasons
the true self
maybe I do
but I cannot
and I will not
if I could choose
because
the true self I cannot hide
because
if I truly look
look beyond your eyes
see beyond the smiles
If I dared to
If I dared to look past the million reasons
If I managed to acknowledge that beyond myself was someone else
someone else
someone with a million reasons
someone with the same reasons.
If I opened my eyes
If I closed them
If I could see them
would it make a difference?
If I did not run past myself
If I met myself when faced with myself
If I managed to see the others as more than myself
Could I help?
Could I be part of it?
Could I?
Why?
Why?
And then I opened my eyes
And I did not see my own reflection
I saw their
The one that could not be hidden
I realised
Behind every reflection
There was a light
There is a light
A light I want to be part of
I realised
That I have a million reasons to run away
to run my race
away from all
A million reasons to run past the others to win on my own
I realised that if I open my eyes
I do not need a million reasons
And there is no need to run
Even if I do see the million reasons
Even if I did
I do not need a million reasons
I only need one
to not do so
and that is you